and so a new semester begins...

through these lenses

nothing has changed

Just as I thought he had changed, I knew it was too good to be true. Nothing has changed, he's still the same ole' selfish bastard who has anger towards me. I had done nothing, he's just jealous of me. I'm sick and tired of people being jealous, it's old, grow the fuck up and get a life. Jealousy gets you nowhere, absolutely NOWHERE. And in the end, you're the one who'll get hurt and fuck up your own shit only because you can't control your feelings and get over something. Go fuck yourself.

it's all a haze

I don't know what to believe anymore.

Disclaimer: Most of these photos are not mine but some are, unless otherwise stated. Well I'm sure you guys can determine what would be mine and what isn't.

build god, then we'll talk

This was back in the day when Panic ! At the Disco was good. Their first album is the only enjoyable one, they should have stopped there. I'm probably lame for saying this but I love "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out Of". Oi I loved their circus/cabaret style.
What happened to Panic?

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I just found an old leather back notebook of mine that I had wrote some thoughts and poems in. I'd thought I share one that sounds rather angry but I kind of like it, I wrote this almost two years ago...

You are much uglier

when my vision is clearer.

What did I ever see in you?

How did we carry on?

Outsiders were always caution,

but many of us were stuck.

How we had no such luck.

It seems like we're all under a spell

and none of us can break out of this hell.

The wells of your water is shallow,

there is no depth to you. You're just a shadow

who hides behind the many souls,

possessed by your intense colorless eyes.

You lack a soul and have a need to control.

Amazingly you work them some how.

Thank god I've broken free,

otherwise who knows what you could have done to me.

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one of those nights

When you dream, do you ever fall into a place where everything seems so real even though you know deep down it's not? When you wake up you can't even tell if you had just dreamt it or it had just happen? Still dazed and confused upon opening your eyes... I love it when I have those dreams, it's like you've traveled into another dimension. Everything is mystical, you get curious and you can't control what's happening. You just teleport from one scene to another in an instant and can't even distinguish when that had happened or how you got there. I don't dream like that often, but when I do, oi it's amazing. :)