back in 2007

almost exactly how I feel about group work.

shake it out

love like a sunset

joy ride

another clever creation by Banksy. A kiddy ride transformed into an environmental statement.

that's the way it is

There are certain things in life that we have to accept and other things we should appreciate.

I have scoliosis, and at times it brings me down because I don't have that "perfect" straight back. It makes me feel very self conscious. When I get down about scoliosis, I have a habit of googling all about it; hoping to find ways to make it better. I like googling pictures of scoliosis, it makes me cringe and even more depressed. But then the images that pop up are (in most cases) of cases way worse then what I have. It made me think to myself... what the 'eff am I whining about? People have to deal with a worse situation than me. I just have to accept that it happened to me and that I'm lucky that I don't have it as bad as other people. With that mentality, it makes me feel a lot better, but of course I still think about "why me?!" sometimes. Although I realize that I can have surgery done, I wish there was a way to fix it without going under the knife. Scoliosis is something I cannot change, I could only prevent it from getting worse (and hope it doesn't get worse).

Hey there are people out there in the world with a missing limb or paraplegic etc... so I appreciate that I have all of my body parts and that they are functional.

I appreciate every single person who is in my life and am thankful everyday for them. I don't know where I'd be without them. The thought of losing them is completely unbearable to grasp upon. All I can say is that I love them and would do anything for them. And I'm specifically talking about three people (sometimes four and sometimes... sometimes five). I'm sure those three people know who they are :) I don't won't to write out who they are because I don't need to announce to the whole world who they are, I care about them too much to pull that. I could write so much more about them and how much I appreciate them, but I don't want to overkill it. There is only so many synonyms for what I could write.

Take home message:

"Count your blessings, not your problems."

P.S. My professor uses the "take home message" phrase so many times that it's stuck in my head. I had to write it out somehow.

room full of wonder

I've been wanting to visit the Ecosystems exhibit for about a year and a half now. So we decided to take a little trip to the California Science Center. :) It was an adventurous day, I felt like a little kid :D being that the admission for the science center was free, it was pretty crowded and there were kids everywhere! :p Nonetheless it was still an awesome day :D

silence is golden

For the past few days I've encountered some troubling thoughts. I don't know, every time that one person had tried to start problems with me, I get these terrifying thoughts, I get consumed with fury and it just wouldn't exit my mind. Then I had a thought, if I had opened my mouth and fired back some words, would it change anything? Would that make me feel better about myself? One thing is for sure is that that person wouldn't change. The only thing that would had happened was that someone would have gotten hurt (probably physically as well). So I meditated. My mother told me to calm down and meditate. Meditation sounds simple, but it helped me overcome an agressive feeling and I just felt empowered and calm and what had bothered me before didn't seem to bother me anymore (for the time being). If I had said anything foul or hurtful every effort that I put into being a better person would have vanished and I'd be just like everybody else. I figured maybe if I save my words then I'd be saving myself too.