another year has come to an end

It's surprising how quickly the year went by.

This year has been wonderful, I'm looking forward to the new year.

And I'm looking forward to the many more years to come.

Let's ring in the new year!

just a note

I was rummaging through a pile of mess in my room yesterday, trying to keep my room tidy and came across a little piece of note paper. The note paper was folded in quarters and was written almost two years ago. It was like a "wish list" I had written of the qualities I had wanted to find in a person. I had kept the list in a secret place, and last year I had lost it. I never moved it, and it just had magically disappeared. I remember last year, I had thought about taking out that piece of paper to review it, but couldn't find it. I just thought to myself that it had disappeared because I had gotten what I wanted and took it as a sign. I know I sound so lame, it could be just coincidental that it disappeared but I'm just going to think of it as a sign. :) But I was surprised to find it, how it was misplaced, I will never know. Looking over the note paper, everything I had "wished" for was on that list. I just thought to myself how blessed I am and that I will remain grateful.

perfect weather

I love days just like today, where the temperature outside feels cool and warm, more towards warm. There's no wind, it's bright, sunny and absolutely beautiful. The perfect weather to take a stroll around town. :)

sigh no more

I haven't felt so relax in a while, well since summer. So relieved that I don't have to think about school for a whole month :D

I feel like being productive during the break though, maybe I'll work on a project of some sort. ;)

photo booth madness

:)

Oh by the way... no more finals! This semester is FINALLY over!!! YAY!!!! :D

summer 2007

there's always darkness before the dawn

I was contemplating putting "young blood" up because I love it but I feel like it's kind of over played. I don't want that song to die like how "pumped up kicks" died. Although I love that song... I love Florence more :)

nobody's perfect

but to me, you are beyond perfection.

Dear ochem,

I'm going to kick your ass.

Love,

Alice :*

inspirational

She had scoliosis, and look at her body now. She kept it from getting worse without surgery :)

So there is hope! This makes me happy, and it's possible to kind of fix it with pilates! :D

it's not the end of the world

But I'm just so hard on myself that it feels like it.

I set my standards up so high, that I couldn't even reach it.

I feel let down, and it's not that I don't try, I do, I really do.

I'm very disappointed in myself.

I just hope that I could improve, but I've been hoping that for the last month.

And I haven't given myself any leverage.

It's so easy just to give up and sometimes I want to, but I know better not to.

I haven't given up yet, and I don't want to.

Oi, optimism... I guess...

word.

back in 2007

almost exactly how I feel about group work.

shake it out

love like a sunset

joy ride

another clever creation by Banksy. A kiddy ride transformed into an environmental statement.

that's the way it is

There are certain things in life that we have to accept and other things we should appreciate.

I have scoliosis, and at times it brings me down because I don't have that "perfect" straight back. It makes me feel very self conscious. When I get down about scoliosis, I have a habit of googling all about it; hoping to find ways to make it better. I like googling pictures of scoliosis, it makes me cringe and even more depressed. But then the images that pop up are (in most cases) of cases way worse then what I have. It made me think to myself... what the 'eff am I whining about? People have to deal with a worse situation than me. I just have to accept that it happened to me and that I'm lucky that I don't have it as bad as other people. With that mentality, it makes me feel a lot better, but of course I still think about "why me?!" sometimes. Although I realize that I can have surgery done, I wish there was a way to fix it without going under the knife. Scoliosis is something I cannot change, I could only prevent it from getting worse (and hope it doesn't get worse).

Hey there are people out there in the world with a missing limb or paraplegic etc... so I appreciate that I have all of my body parts and that they are functional.

I appreciate every single person who is in my life and am thankful everyday for them. I don't know where I'd be without them. The thought of losing them is completely unbearable to grasp upon. All I can say is that I love them and would do anything for them. And I'm specifically talking about three people (sometimes four and sometimes... sometimes five). I'm sure those three people know who they are :) I don't won't to write out who they are because I don't need to announce to the whole world who they are, I care about them too much to pull that. I could write so much more about them and how much I appreciate them, but I don't want to overkill it. There is only so many synonyms for what I could write.

Take home message:

"Count your blessings, not your problems."

P.S. My professor uses the "take home message" phrase so many times that it's stuck in my head. I had to write it out somehow.

room full of wonder

I've been wanting to visit the Ecosystems exhibit for about a year and a half now. So we decided to take a little trip to the California Science Center. :) It was an adventurous day, I felt like a little kid :D being that the admission for the science center was free, it was pretty crowded and there were kids everywhere! :p Nonetheless it was still an awesome day :D

silence is golden

For the past few days I've encountered some troubling thoughts. I don't know, every time that one person had tried to start problems with me, I get these terrifying thoughts, I get consumed with fury and it just wouldn't exit my mind. Then I had a thought, if I had opened my mouth and fired back some words, would it change anything? Would that make me feel better about myself? One thing is for sure is that that person wouldn't change. The only thing that would had happened was that someone would have gotten hurt (probably physically as well). So I meditated. My mother told me to calm down and meditate. Meditation sounds simple, but it helped me overcome an agressive feeling and I just felt empowered and calm and what had bothered me before didn't seem to bother me anymore (for the time being). If I had said anything foul or hurtful every effort that I put into being a better person would have vanished and I'd be just like everybody else. I figured maybe if I save my words then I'd be saving myself too.

we're half way towards the end

of this semester. Thank god! Every semester feels like it's progressively passing by faster and faster. I can't wait to transfer out of PCC, I'm about done with this school. I've never really taken my classes seriously, but now I have to have a mentality of a nerd and strive for high grades. I'm not used to this competitive nature, it's total bullshit but I want to leave so I have to suck it up. :p Nothing ever comes easily, I just have to work hard for what I want.

that's how we roll

and so a new semester begins...

through these lenses

nothing has changed

Just as I thought he had changed, I knew it was too good to be true. Nothing has changed, he's still the same ole' selfish bastard who has anger towards me. I had done nothing, he's just jealous of me. I'm sick and tired of people being jealous, it's old, grow the fuck up and get a life. Jealousy gets you nowhere, absolutely NOWHERE. And in the end, you're the one who'll get hurt and fuck up your own shit only because you can't control your feelings and get over something. Go fuck yourself.

it's all a haze

I don't know what to believe anymore.

Disclaimer: Most of these photos are not mine but some are, unless otherwise stated. Well I'm sure you guys can determine what would be mine and what isn't.

build god, then we'll talk

This was back in the day when Panic ! At the Disco was good. Their first album is the only enjoyable one, they should have stopped there. I'm probably lame for saying this but I love "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out Of". Oi I loved their circus/cabaret style.
What happened to Panic?

untitled

I just found an old leather back notebook of mine that I had wrote some thoughts and poems in. I'd thought I share one that sounds rather angry but I kind of like it, I wrote this almost two years ago...

You are much uglier

when my vision is clearer.

What did I ever see in you?

How did we carry on?

Outsiders were always caution,

but many of us were stuck.

How we had no such luck.

It seems like we're all under a spell

and none of us can break out of this hell.

The wells of your water is shallow,

there is no depth to you. You're just a shadow

who hides behind the many souls,

possessed by your intense colorless eyes.

You lack a soul and have a need to control.

Amazingly you work them some how.

Thank god I've broken free,

otherwise who knows what you could have done to me.

-

one of those nights

When you dream, do you ever fall into a place where everything seems so real even though you know deep down it's not? When you wake up you can't even tell if you had just dreamt it or it had just happen? Still dazed and confused upon opening your eyes... I love it when I have those dreams, it's like you've traveled into another dimension. Everything is mystical, you get curious and you can't control what's happening. You just teleport from one scene to another in an instant and can't even distinguish when that had happened or how you got there. I don't dream like that often, but when I do, oi it's amazing. :)

picture perfect

happy summer

v(^_^)v

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air... like Florence :)

free flowing

sea nettles.

and in the dark

I can hear your heartbeat, I tried to find the sound...

I was completely blown away by her performance last night. Hands down the best performance I've seen all year. And I have to say, she beat the strokes's performance. She's majestic and all I can say is that I love love love Florence + the Machine.

♥

& as if I hadn't been obvious enough, she's one of my favorite musicians and that's why she's all over my blog hahah I'm obsessed (just a little bit). :)

last nite

was amazing! I had waited for that night, for the longest time. I've finally seen the strokes live in concert and they were awesome (says this nonchalantly).

Set list:

Reptilia

Under cover of Darkness

Hard to Explain

You're So Right

Heart in a Cage

You Only Live Once

Taken For A Fool

Take It or Leave It

Last Nite

(I don't remember the exact order, but the first 3 songs and the last song are in the right place).

spotted

the alice face. :D

wonder world

Mysterious and beautiful.

"Being nice to someone you dislike doesn't mean that you're a fake, it means you're mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them."

two kinds of happiness